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Sunday, April 12, 2015

"What Do You Wanna Be?" | I Don't Know.

Hey There!

So it is currently 12:26 AM and I cannot sleep ! Probably because I took a nap mid-day, but that's okay. I am STRESSING out right now, so the best thing I could possibly do is put my headphones in, and write a blog post that probably no one will read but will make me feel a lot better to do. I want to redesign my blog( I shouldn't), but I will be up until like 5 and I have to be up at 7 so.. no. And besides, I like how it looks.

Anyways, Today I was telling my parents that I wasn't really sure about school. They kinda got mad ay me but not really and told me that I needed to go. But, I don't know what I wanna do as a career. I want to be so many things and I can't really decide. I want to be a graphic designer/web designer, but then I want to be a business owner and own a club, oh and I want to be a photographer, a YouTuber, a Blogger, travel the world, help children in need, marketing, have my own radio show, an interior designer, a music manager and UGH! Do you see my problem? There are so many things that I want to do but I don't wanna go to school and spend all this money if at the end of it all, I won't be happy with my decision. I want to be able to know what I want to be and then go to school. But then at the same time I just really want to get it over with and then other days I just want to quit school and just... idk. But I won't do that. I want to make my parents proud and I want to achieve so many things in my life so I can't just drop everything. 

And that is causing me to just not care about school. I have a biology test tomorrow morning and I didn't study. Mostly because I seriously forgot and then when I remembered It didn't make me want to study. I just don't have that "drive" for school and I don't want to be that person that just doesn't go to school (not saying that not going to school is bad, because you do you, but for me..). So here I am trying to make up my mind by the end of this LONG A** post. But I won't. I just want to make YouTube videos, and blog and design! That's all I want to do. Seriously, those are the only things that actually make me HAPPY. I don't want to work a 9-5. I want to have my own schedule and have fun with what I do. You seriously only live once and I want to live to the fullest! 

Okay! Im done. 

If your are going through something like this, let me know what you are doing to make this better or the things you have done. I will love to know any tips!




  1. Don't be in any rush to pick out a career - you have your whole life for that! If you really want to do further studying (it's your decision, not your family's, you'll probably be the one paying for it after all) pick something that you enjoy right now. When I went to university I studied Photography, because that was what I enjoyed at the time. Employers like knowing that you have a degree, but it doesn't always have to be directly related to the job unless you want to be a doctor or something like that. Besides, if you pick a career right now, you'll probably change your mind by the time you graduate (happens more than you think).

    Anyway, I'm 24, with a Master's Degree, and I still don't really know what I want to do... I guess I'm trying to say... don't panic.

    1. Thanks so much! This really did help Alice! :)

  2. Life is super tough sometimes and I can relate pretty well to your struggles. I thought about saving my money and working my butt up after HS but realized if I want to do anything, I at least need a college degree--I went for a very general degree so that I can really branch anywhere (Business/Management). If there is any advice I can give, this is my little two cents:

    Pick a subject in college that either a) will translate REALLY well across all things, i.e. business, marketing, etc. that way, if you decide to switch careers, you'll have a good foundation to support the work you might do one day (business/marketing, etc. is super neutral and works with a lot of different jobs. OR b) go for a subject that you is particularly harder to learn on your own. For example, you are a self-taught photographer which is AWESOME; no need to go to class for it because with school the way it is, you MIGHT just get sick of it! Pick one of the things that you know you need classes to learn and make your money in college really worth it!

    At the end of the day, many places just want to know that you at least have a Bachelors and that you have experience--whatever the bachelor's degree actually is won't matter once you have experience under your belt. Just get through school as quickly as you can and keep working on things you're passionate about on the side! Once you've graduated and have that expensive piece of paper in your hands, go and try everything you want to try! With the route you're going, heck you might even be ALL of the things you want to be! Just get through school (you don't even need awesome grades or anything tbh) and keep doing what your heart desires; you'll figure it out soon enough and if it's not ideal or you want to change, just do it! Life is too long to just stick to one thing so do everything you want all the time and you'll be happy with that :)

    Hope this helps! Let me know if you want to chat more about this ahaha, I've gone through it all myself too and I think about this alllllll the time

    1. Ahh This was amazing!! Thanks so much Love. You are awesome and this really made me so happy! :) Thanks so much for this. Helped so much (believe it or not). Thanks!!


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